trapped between two worlds

living in two worlds,
looking similar
but they are not
one is going after the other
which is escaping more
the first one i chose
the second i did not
the first one i like
the other i do not
if only i could live
only in the one i chose..
but i cannot
if i don't want to be alone
with thoughts annoying
that they would not leave me enjoy
the pleasure of trying to understand
in the world in which i would not be living in
thus my only hope
is to make a change in them both